2005-01-01 - 3:15 p.m.

happy new year.

ok, so in the last entry i had a lot on my mind and things have been intresting lately and i didn't really know whats going on. well i still dont know whats going on really, but i think i might just lay low for a while on the whole thing. it just doesn't seem like a good time for the other party involved. i dont want to wait, but i feel like it might be best for the other party, unless the other party were to disagree with that. that's just vague enough to work.

last night was mickey t's new years eve bash. it was pretty fun. we watched shaun of the dead which is definately in my top 5 favorite movies now. it was awesome. we watched anchorman. it wasn't as good as i thought it'd be but pretty good nonetheless. the fight scene was the best part. then we went up to michael's room and watched mystery science theator 3000:the movie. it never gets old.

then everyone left except me and forrest. we watched napolion dynamite cause katie accidently left it. it was pretty good. we all saw a side of michael's dog, jonah, we'd never seen before. he tried to kill(and not playfully) forrest and i for no reason. well forrest for no reason, i was trying to get him to stop eating a flower. he actually kinda sorta bit me. he grazed my chest...and it kinda hurt. then he ate a ribbon like it was spaghetti. i still cant believe he did that.

michael's mom made pancakes. they were delicious. i painted my left thumb nail lime green and i tried to draw a happy face on my right one, but it came out looking like a sad face. i even somehow gave it a tear. that was slightly depressing.

i wanna share some lyrics because they remind me of me and current situations.

alkaline trio - "hating every minute"

sit down, please make yourself comfortable
i might need some time
to dance around what i need to say,
i love you to death, i think i need a break.
i spend my days worried out loud,
i get in my head, i choke it back down.
it hurts me inside to save you inside,
so close my lips tight, move eyes to the side.
this is the way we disappear,
it’s easy if you burn out like a star,
this is the way we disappear,
it’s easy like a fifty foot fall.
i’m waiting, for whatever better time
to evict these words that, that have rented out my mind.
i’m hating every minute that i don’t speak loud,
like a year laying down,
are you laying down,
are you laying down,
relax on this bed of nails,
on this plastic sheet, your blood leaves a trail
right back to me, a problem you see.
Would you please allow a moment to think?
this is the way we disappear,
it’s easy if you burn out like a star,
this is the way we disappear,
it’s easy like a fifty foot fall.
i’m waiting, for whatever better time
to evict these words that, that have rented out my mind.
i’m hating every minute that I don’t speak loud,
like a year laying down,
are you laying down,
are you laying down?

those lyrics are different from what most lyrics sites say, but what i have came straight from the song. gotta love alkaline trio.

song of the day(1): alkaline trio - "hating every minute"

song of the day(2): the lawrence arms - "100 resolutions"

song of the day(3): one man army - "the radio airwaves gave me a lobotomy"

quote of the day: "i've got 100 resolutions, but i've got no solutions." -the lawrence arms - "100 resolutions"

cheers love.