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2005-04-05 - 6:35 p.m. i gotta get the fuck outta here. i think i'm gonna have a nervous breakdown. i hate it here. i don't fit in with the people, i don't get anything out of my classes, i'm sick of eating crap, and my roommate's a dick. i miss my friends. i miss my sarwah. i miss my bed. i miss real food...whew. now i am a firm believer of "everything happens for a reason," and so i do believe there's a reason why i came to radford, actually a few reasons...i compiled a list! 1. to realize that this is not the place for me right now(it sounds weird, but it makes sense in my head). 2. this has, in a way, helped mine and sarah's relationship become stronger. i'm not exactly sure how to explain this one either, but i'll try. i think our bond has become stronger through missing each other, and the time we do have together is that much more special. but i am damn tired of just seeing her on the weekends. 3. i would have never met chris if i hadn't come here. chris has become a good friend of mine and maybe one of the few things(not to call him a thing) that has kept me sane. also, scantily plaid would be nothing without him, nothing. 4. i did need to get away from my mom for a while. around the time i left, we weren't getting along so well. we were both stressed out for several reasons, and we just needed time apart from each other. 5. i learned how to do laundry. there might be more, but those are all the ones i can think of off the top of my head. i'm majoring in music business, but what i really want to do is perform. i want to sing in a band for the rest of my life. its not a silly dream. its what i love doing. none of my classes are preparing me for this, because i don't need a class for what i want to do. i could major in perfoming with a concentration in voice, but my style of singing is not what radford teaches. i know, i tried that at first, i had to learn an itallian song. it was not fun. i'm talking to sarah right now. i thank God for her. she really calmed me down. i love her. i will more than likely be coming back to radford next year. some of the stuff is paid for already. plus, i do wanna wait at least until scantily plaid starts to pick up speed before i make any drastic decisions. one more month til summer...it couldn't come soon enough. this will be the longest month of my life. now, on to happier subjects... i went home this weekend. scantily plaid had a 7 hour practice. we're starting to sound really good. even randy likes us. that says something. chris and i stayed with michael. it was a little cold, but i had fun. i went to sarah's both nights. the first night we watched an old horror flick. i think it was called scared to death. sarah gave me an easter basket and a freakin cool pink and black checkered slap bracelet. it is awesome. the second night we watched donnie darko. i love that movie. oh, i forgot to mention that at practice, i was feeling like crap. i had gotten sick because michael's furnace was broken and i was already starting to get sick. andrew gave me a pill and told me to take it. i said ok. turns out it was tylenol with codine(thats illegal for all you people not in the know). man i was bouncing off the walls. once the rest of the band was too tired to play anymore, i could have gone through our setlist 3 more times. wow. no link today. song of the day(1): relient k - "be my escape" song of the day(2): the distillers - "dismantle me" quote of the day: i think that's what that bright eyes song is called. correct me if i'm wrong...or tell me if i'm right. that might be nice. outie. |
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