2005-04-13 - 4:51 p.m.

groovie ghoulie6: things seem to be bad for everyone these days
Run Out of Blues: yea, true,
groovie ghoulie6: i'm blaming it on the month of april
groovie ghoulie6: damn spring
Run Out of Blues: hmm, that sounds reasonable,

i find myself not wanting to update this thing lately cause i never have anything really happy to talk about. that's depressing in itself.

alright, most of you know this, but i'm talking about it anyway. friday night, carter came into the room, drunk as usual, and told me to get off the couch and turn off the tv. remember when he accused me of stealing his food? this was aparently a relapse or something of that. so i got up to talk to him and he grabs me and throws me against his desk and then he steps back and asks if i want to hit him. uh...no. well actually, i kinda wanted to hit him, but he was in a drunken rage already. so he left and i went downstairs and told the rd what had happened and showed her my bruise. she called the cops. unfortunately, the cops couldn't do anything because there was no witness and carter told them i got up from the couch and grabbed his arm. now they didn't believe him, they even told me they think he's a jerk and a liar, but they didn't have any proof. so i opted to move out.

they put me in a guest room in another dorm for two nights with just a bag of clothes. finally they found a room for me sunday night. my back is still sore cause i had to move all my stuff by myself. they put me in the itec dorm, which basically means i'm in the dorm with all the nerdy gamer types. my new roommate's name is brad. he's a nice guy. our bathroom smells like fruit.

i've barely gotten to talk to sarah at all since like thursday except maybe 2 minutes on a cell phone on saturday where i couldn't really hear her and a little bit on aim monday night. its driving me crazy, especially now that i'm just about completely fed up with this place and all i want to do is be home right now.

speaking of being fed up with this place, i might not be back next semester. yeah i said it. i'm not looking at it as dropping out tho. i am not dropping out. i'm just taking a break from all this to sorta figure things out. like i said in my last entry (i think i said this), i don't feel like any of my classes are preparing me for what i really want to do. i'm not saying that i won't go back. i don't really know at this point. please, dont look at this as me throwing my life away. look at this as me going after what i really want. what makes me happy.

all of this is still up in the air at this point of course. mom still isn't convinced that this is what i should be doing, but that was expected. i've brought her down from a "no." to a "we'll talk about it." thats progress.

moving on...

ya know what i've been craving?...of course you don't...ultimate frisbee! i think we should get a bunch of people together in june or something and play ultimate frisbee in that field next to first baptist church. please? *puppy dog eyes*

wait! i do have something happy to report. scantily plaid will be playing our first show at los 3 amigos on saturday, april 23rd at 10pm so come out for that. again, please? its free.

i want reel big fish's new album really really really bad. really.

i've kinda given up on giving a link of the day every entry. its too much work. shut up. i'll put one up every now and then...not this time tho.

song of the day(1): alkaline trio - "the poison"

song of the day(2): tiger army - "calling"

song of the day(3): mad caddies - "just one more"

quote of the day: "if i could, i would totally beat the shit out of the weather. if it were a tangible object, that is." -meg

meg is right. this weather sucks.

bonne nuit. (that's french)