2005-04-18 - 6:53 p.m.

it never ends...

my reason for living just walked out on me. sarah broke up with me. she said it was because of the whole college thing and she's not sure what love is so she didn't want to keep telling me she loved me if she didn't know. maybe my brother was right. maybe she is too young. no, i don't care. i still love her and i mean that from the bottom of my heart...but i lost her...she's gone.

i guess i should have seen it coming. she hasn't really made much of an attempt to talk to me lately.

the only girl i ever truely loved.

i swear i feel like my life is slipping away and i can't do a fuckin thing.